Where I Want to See Myself in My 40s–50s

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about the future.

Not just:

“What job will I have?”

or

“How much money will I make?”

For most people, when they imagine their 40s or 50s, they probably think about financial stability, a good house, cars, investments, a comfortable lifestyle, travelling, or having a successful career.

For me, it's different.

I have only one achievement that I desperately want to accomplish before I reach my 40s–50s.

I want to achieve something so significant that my father finally looks at me and says:

“Beta, you made it. You did it.”

Those words might sound extremely simple to someone else.

To me, they would mean everything.

Because throughout my life, I have never heard those words from him.

Not once.

And that's something that has stayed somewhere in the back of my mind for years.

What does success mean to me?

For others, success might be:

• Cars
• Mansions
• Expensive gadgets
• A huge bank balance
• A luxurious lifestyle
• A prestigious job
• Fame

And there's absolutely nothing wrong with wanting those things.

But for me, success is much simpler.

Success is hearing my father say:

“Beta, you did it. You made it.”

For the first time in my life.

That's the achievement I want.

Not because I need his money.

Not because I want his approval for everything I do.

But because there is a part of me that has always wanted to prove that I wasn't the failure he thought I was.

I want to prove that I wasn't a failed son.

Maybe that's where the fire came from

Akhouri Systems was started by me in May 2026.

And if I'm being completely honest, I think some of the fire behind it came from exactly this.

That feeling of:

“One day, I'll show you what I can actually do.”

Maybe that's not the healthiest motivation in the world.

Maybe someday I'll look back at myself and realize that I shouldn't have needed anyone's validation to build something.

But right now, that's the truth.

Sometimes when I feel demotivated about Akhouri Systems, my skills, my future, or whether I'm actually capable of building something meaningful, I remember the sentence I want to say to my father face-to-face someday.

Not:

“Look how much money I made.”

Not:

“Look at my car.”

Not:

“Look how famous I became.”

Just:

“You were wrong about me.”

And hopefully, someday, he will respond:

“You made it. I was wrong. You were right.”

My achievements don't always feel like achievements

This is probably the weirdest part.

I've already done things that I should probably be proud of.

Akhouri Systems exists.

I've built software.

I've learned technologies on my own.

I've tried to market my products.

I've dealt with failures.

I've kept going.

And Akhouri Systems reached 620 downloads in around three months.

I started building this without being an adult.

I was 13.

No big team.

No giant funding.

No experienced mentor standing beside me every day.

No huge marketing budget.

Just me, my laptop, my ideas, and a ridiculous amount of determination.

Objectively, that's something.

But emotionally?

Sometimes it still feels like nothing.

Because somewhere in my head there is still that unfinished sentence:

“Beta, you made it.”

I've never heard it.

And because of that, some of my achievements feel smaller to me than they probably should.

I don't want to spend my whole life proving something

At the same time, I don't want my entire life to become one giant argument with my father.

That's not what I ultimately want.

I don't want to wake up at 40 thinking:

“I have to beat him.”

I want to wake up at 40 thinking:

“I built something meaningful.”

There's a difference.

The anger might have started the engine.

But eventually, something else needs to keep the engine running.

Curiosity.

Purpose.

Ambition.

The desire to build.

The desire to solve problems.

The desire to create something that didn't exist before.

That's where I eventually want my motivation to come from.

What I want Akhouri Systems to become

I don't know exactly where Akhouri Systems will be when I'm 40.

Maybe it will become a large technology company.

Maybe it will specialize in cybersecurity.

Maybe it will move into AI.

Maybe defence technology.

Maybe something I haven't even thought about yet.

The world will change massively before I reach my 40s.

The technologies I'm learning today might look primitive by then.

Entire industries might disappear.

New ones will appear.

So I don't want to make some unrealistic prediction like:

“At 40, Akhouri Systems will be worth X billion dollars.”

I don't know.

And honestly, I don't care about the number as much as I care about the impact.

I hope Akhouri Systems eventually crosses beyond the limits I can currently imagine.

I hope it contributes something meaningful to its field.

I hope something I started as a 13-year-old eventually becomes something that other people use, trust, build upon, or remember.

That would mean far more to me than simply having a big valuation.

The sentence I want to say face-to-face

There is a sentence I've imagined saying to my father someday.

Face-to-face.

Not through WhatsApp.

Not through a post.

Not through someone else.

Just me standing in front of him.

And saying:

“You thought I was a failed son.

But I wasn't.

You were a failed father.”

That's the harsh version.

That's the sentence that comes to my mind when I'm angry.

But underneath that anger, there is another sentence I actually want to hear from him:

“Beta, you made it.

I was wrong about you.

You were right.”

And honestly?

If I could hear that even once in my entire life, I think a huge part of me would finally feel at peace.

Before he leaves me

This is another reason this matters so much to me.

Parents don't stay forever.

That's just reality.

And I don't want to reach a point where I've spent decades building things and then realize I never got the opportunity to show him what I became.

I want to prove to him what I'm capable of while he's still here to see it.

Not because I want to hurt him.

Not because I want revenge.

Because somewhere inside me, I still want that recognition from my father.

I want him to see the person I became.

The person I built.

The company I built.

The things I learned.

The failures I survived.

The things I achieved.

And then, hopefully, say those words.

What if I fail?

This is probably the hardest question.

What if Akhouri Systems fails?

What if I build something and it collapses?

What if I make terrible decisions?

What if my first company isn't the thing that succeeds?

What if I have to start over?

I don't know.

But one thing I know is that failure wouldn't erase everything I learned.

It wouldn't erase the experience.

It wouldn't erase the skills.

It wouldn't erase the fact that I tried.

Still, emotionally, I know myself.

A part of me would probably feel like I failed.

Because this goal means that much to me.

But maybe the older version of me will understand something that I don't fully understand today:

One failed project doesn't mean a failed life.

Maybe the company I build at 13 won't be the company that defines me at 40.

Maybe it will simply be the first chapter.

And that's okay.

Even if I became Elon Musk...

This might sound ridiculous, but it's honestly how strongly I feel about it.

Imagine I became insanely successful.

Imagine I built companies worth billions.

Imagine I became one of the most successful entrepreneurs in the world.

Even then, a part of me would still want to hear those words from my father:

“Beta, you made it.”

Because for me, this isn't really about money.

It's about recognition.

It's about hearing something I've wanted to hear since I was a kid.

It's about knowing that, at least once, he looked at everything I built and thought:

“Maybe I was wrong about him.”

So where do I want to see myself at 40–50?

I don't have an exact answer.

I don't know what country I'll live in.

I don't know what technology I'll be working with.

I don't know what company I'll be running.

I don't know how much money I'll have.

I don't know what my life will look like.

But I know how I want to feel.

I want to feel that I didn't waste my potential.

I want to have built something meaningful.

I want to have contributed something to technology—or whatever field I eventually choose.

I want to be financially independent.

I want to keep learning.

I want to have people around me whom I respect.

And most importantly...

I want to be able to look back at the 13-year-old version of myself who started Akhouri Systems in May 2026 and say:

“You didn't give up.”

And maybe, just maybe, I'll finally hear the words I've been waiting for my entire life.

“Beta, you made it. You did it.”

That would be enough.

Not the cars.

Not the mansion.

Not the luxury.

Not the fame.

Just those words.

And until that day comes, whenever I feel like giving up, I'll keep remembering why I started.

Akhouri Systems isn't just a company to me.

It's proof that I tried to become something.

And maybe someday, standing face-to-face with my father, I'll finally be able to say:

“You were wrong about me.”

And hear him answer:

“I know. You made it.”

My company's website's founder message also says one thing
{Akhouri Systems is not just about a software manufacturer built by a kid.
It is now about a word called EGO.}

https://akhouri-anmol-kumar.github.io/Akhouri-systems/
website link 👆

Where do you want to see yourself in your 40s-50s probably 60s?
I would like to hear👂