Well this is not easy, I mean both the situation I'm struggling with and being here opening to a whole community.
I'm a developer with a wide experience that worked in different companies, agencies and also as a freelance, but I've always have this feeling of being proud of what I'm doing and interested in about the topics related to the project I've been working on.
I consider myself somebody who likes to jump into hard challenges and able to find a solution and felling great about the challenge and all the learning acquired during the process.
But from sometime to now I've been on the opposite side, let me explain. I've been working in the same company in different projects, changing to a new programming languages and in different teams.
And of course, it's been a challenge, every day since I've been in this company, but I always end in the same situation.
I feel overwhelmed, demotivated, sad and also having the feeling that I'm not learning anything.
I learned new languages of course but I don't feel I'm capable of doing something with it, I learn how to do the basics to do my tasks, apply feedback of my mates and that's all.
If you ask me, hey start from scratch with this language I don't feel prepared to it.
Is an estrange feeling, because day by day I feel worse, I feel that my work has no value at all and It is affecting my career without accomplishing the goals to be promoted or at least have a team being proud of helping to build the latest future.
And the worst is feeling that I'm not more useful and being on a loop.
And this is causing me some anxiety time to time, like a rollercoaster and when it's at the top my body needs to stop and If I don't, then I collapse with migraines and head twisting that leaves me 3 to 4 days out.
I want to pin point that I'm currently on a treatment with my doctor and on therapy in order to handle this.
Does anybody of you have been in the same situation?
What did you do?
And also if you have an advice it will be really appreciated.
