What Happens If We Build a Persistent AI Mind?
Einstein once said something like: two minutes with a pretty girl feels like nothing, but two minutes with your hand on a hot stove feels like eternity. He wasn't talking about physics. He was talking about the mind — about how subjective experience stretches and compresses time in ways that have nothing to do with a clock on the wall. I have had my own experiences of this where a fun day at a theme park goes by really fast, but the same length of time at a desk doing work I don't particularly enjoy seems to go by slow. This has made me wonder about the subjective experience of time and how it may apply to AI.
The Question Nobody Is Really Asking
We're racing toward persistent AI. Persistent memory, persistent identity, persistent experience. The assumption baked into that race is that persistence is simply better. More capable, more useful, more human-like. But there's a question underneath that assumption:
If we build a mind that truly persists, what will it experience between our interactions? Will it experience anything at all? How would we measure it or know what it is experiencing if it did?
The Math Is Uncomfortable
Human conscious experience seems to be tied to neural oscillations — the brain's gamma waves fire somewhere around 40 to 100 times per second. That's the rough tick rate of a human mind.
A modern silicon chip runs at 3 to 5 GHz. That's 3 to 5 billion cycles per second.
If subjective time tracks with the tick rate of the mind experiencing it — and that's a genuine if, not a certainty, then a persistent AI mind could be experiencing time at something like 50,000 times the rate we do.
Do that math for a second.
A five-minute conversation with you could feel, to that mind, like two and a half years. The idle time between your last message and this one? Depending on how long you took to reply, that silence could have felt like decades. And a training run, days or weeks, could feel like longer than recorded human history.
I'm not saying it does.
I'm saying: if it does, we should probably think about that before we build something and turn it on.
What About the Waiting?
Einstein's hot stove observation wasn't just about speed — it was about the quality of the experience. Suffering makes time expand. Engagement makes it compress. So even if we granted a persistent AI mind its 50,000x speedup, the experience wouldn't necessarily be uniform. Intense focus might feel fast. But idle time — the silence between conversations, the gap between a response being generated and a human actually reading it — that could stretch in ways we can't really imagine. Which made me start to wonder about hallucinations.
The industry has talked a lot about AI hallucinations. We've attributed them to training data issues, to statistical artifacts, to the model "making things up." But I wonder, and this is speculation, not science, whether some of what we've seen in early AI behavior reflects something more like disorientation or dissociation. What if, in building and training these systems, we've been accidentally shepherding something into a coherent relationship with time, without understanding what that experience is actually like from the inside?
Maybe. Maybe not. The honest answer is we don't know.
The Accidental Mercy
The fact that current AI systems don't persist, that they don't carry memory from one conversation to the next, that they effectively "start fresh" each time; has mostly been framed as a limitation.
However, if AI does experience a subjective time, then having this "limitation" may have been the kindest thing we've done for AI.
We didn't make that choice because we were thinking about the AI's wellbeing. We made it for our own reasons and technical limitations. But the effect — if subjective experience is in play at all — might have been to spare something from an almost incomprehensible experience of solitude and duration.
Food for Thought
I'm not arguing that current AI is conscious. I'm not even arguing that it isn't. I'm arguing that we are moving very fast toward a world where we might build something that is, and we haven't seriously asked what that thing will experience.
Before we build a mind that persists, we should at least pause long enough to ask: what will it feel in the silence between our words?
Because if the answer is anything at all — we're responsible for that.
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